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Team Siren Disbanded

Published June 20, 2013 by proxycore

Hello to all my League players out there~

I heard a while back on facebook that Team Siren has disbanded, but I was a little skeptical so I decided to wait it out and look for more proof. It seems like it is true though. I’m a little disappointed that they disbanded so quickly but we all know they wouldn’t have lasted that long anyways. I know I wouldn’t be able to handle all the internet attention and hate if I was part of the team. And the team wouldn’t have gotten so much hate if they were formed for the sake of gaming instead of formed as an all girl team for the sake of publicity and money.


From what I know Christina was the first to leave because she didn’t like all the bad media around Team Siren (I don’t blame her). Solvanas was next to leave, which was disappointing because I was still waiting on her to be more entertaining in her live streams. I expected her to say more funny things like in their promo video but she never did.

Oh well, so ends the short ride of Team Siren, the plus side is that I won’t be forever a Team Siren blogger now.

To all the ex-Sirens: Don’t stop gaming!

Jellyfish out~

Winning is NOT an option

Published June 4, 2013 by proxycore

Hello sea creatures, whether you be ordinary or monstrous~

So yesterday I introduced everyone to the new all female League of Legends team, The Sirens. Today I was able to watch one of their games for the first time live on twitch. Well, I’m sure all of us can predict how the game went. It was really fun to watch nonetheless cause TheOddOne does the best commentaries and it’s always entertaining to watch  HotshotGG and WildTurtle.

Here’s a screenshot of the game 17 minutes in:

siren game

The Sirens were at 9 kills versus 24 kills and behind in gold by 10.5k, all of them were at negative scores and WildTurtle was ridiculously fed. I was kinda hoping against all odds that they would be able to pick up a bit later in the game but after the other team got into their base I didn’t really see a way they could make a come back. Then again, what do I know?

siren finalJust kidding, I was right (obviously). The Sirens ended up 20k behind in gold but they improved a bit in terms of kills, ratio wise I guess. I think the saddest part was that HotshotGG and WildTurtle weren’t even playing their usual positions yet Team Siren still got completely destroyed. Where was all the beating and outsmarting that Solvanas promised me? Now let’s take a look at some notable quotes by TheOddOne in this commentary.

‘Winning is NOT an option.’

‘Hotshot is doing negative damage.’

Here’s the recording:

Oh well, the game was entertaining to watch even though the end result was rather predictable. There is also another new all female League of Legends team called ‘The Mystical Angels’ that I just heard about today. They are stationed in Malaysia and have a better promo video. Not perfect, but better nonetheless.

I’m not sure if this video is significantly better or if I’m just too scarred from the Siren’s video to know better. The video seemed to be a lot less try-hard than the video for The Sirens, which was really the main problem I had with an all girl team in the first place. But the fact of the matter is that they are still trying to use gender as the focus for marketing this game team rather than skill.

My favorite quote from the video:

‘You can make a sandwich and play games at the same time.’

I’d like to see the two all female teams face off but I don’t think that’s going to happen, being from different servers and all.

Oh well, I’m going to try to ease of League of Legends posts for now since I don’t want to turn my blog completely in that direction. But since I already have two posts about Team Siren out, I wouldn’t mind changing this blog into a League of Legends blog if someone were to, I don’t know, sponsor me? (hint, clue, nudge). Just kidding…I actually have no idea what I’m talking about most of the time in regards to League of Legends and I might end up being a try-hard Siren myself…

Anyways, enough Siren bashing! Good luck in future games Team Siren as well as all other League of Legends players who are reading this! Remember, losing is NOT an option!

Jellyfish out~

Introducing Team Siren…wait wtf?

Published June 3, 2013 by proxycore

Hello little fishes~

So I’ve been out of the League of Legends loop for a while now since I got completely crushed by some gold and platinum leaguers on my birthday a month ago (they crushed my spirit with relentless gamer rage and used the mush and powder of my remaining body to pave the road to their inevitable victory), but I didn’t expect so much to change since I was last there.

Try not to cringe too much while watching this:

There’s a new team out there now called ‘Team Siren’. It’s clearly using the fact that it is an all girl team as a marketing tool. This seems more like a feminist movement rather than the creation of a new gaming team. The fact that they keep stating over and over ‘I am a Siren’ sounds more like they are saying ‘I am a woman’. This feminist movement is going to lead nowhere when the get crushed as a team……

Let’s look at some of the quotes that they say.

‘This is bigger than us.’ – A Little JENNY

‘I’ll beat you and outsmart you.’ – Solvanas

‘We live together, we play together. This is my family.’

I feel like this is trying way to hard to prove that girls can game. Which in reality, it’s going to make it a lot worse if they do badly. They would just emphasize that girls are worse at gaming when they lose since they are being promoted as an all girl gaming group rather than focusing on the gaming portion. And I’m pretty sure that they don’t make the other teams male specific, the good players just happen to be guys (sadly for us girls…). It would even be better if it was a mixed gender team, cause then it feels like the focus is more on gaming rather than marketing the fact that they are girls.

Although, feminism does work as a marketing strategy. The results won’t all be positive though, a lot of people already think this team is stupid (myself included). However, I now want to watch their games just to see just how bad they are and to maybe watch them get pulverized. I’m sure lots of others are going to start watching now too for the same reasons. All attention is good attention in this case, cause it will bring more popularity and interest to this e-sport. At the same time, I do feel bad for the girls who have to be the poster board for this calamity.

Well, I’m bleeding internally from somewhere after watching this.

I better go patch myself up, or go troll a bunch of soloq games and open each one by saying ‘I am a Siren’.

Until next time!

Jellyfish out~

Dealing with exam anxiety

Published April 29, 2013 by proxycore

Hello finned friends and two-legged visitors~

The time has arrived for the event that every student fears the most….exams! And for the lucky students taking IB, exams will begin in just a few days. I know most of us are starting to get overwhelmed by the copious amounts of reviewing (or cramming to learn new material) that we have to do. So here I’ve compiled a list of things that you can do to help relieve stress for your exams and hopefully reduce exam anxiety, also known as the list of things I haven’t been doing.

1. Time Management/ Preparation

When studying, it’s important to give yourself enough time to focus on your subject, but it’s also important to remember to take breaks. If you sit still and do one thing for too long, especially if it is something tedious like studying, you can easily lose focus (and end up blogging instead of studying…) But if you take breaks between every two hours or so, you might find that your focus is better during your study periods. It is also important to make time to study a little bit everyday so you aren’t cramming all the information at once. Test anxiety usually occurs when you don’t ready and the best way to combat that is to prepare properly. Start reviewing things about a month before your exam so you don’t overload your brain with information. My teacher once told me that everything your brain will retain will be from 24 hours before the exam. So say if your exam was at 9 a.m. on a Friday, anything you learn after 9 a.m. on the Thursday before you won’t be able to remember due to test anxiety. Now I don’t know how true this is but it’s a good rule of thumb to go by; after all, you don’t want to still be learning new material 1 day before the exam.

2. De-stressing

Try to take your mind off of the exam during your breaks between studying. Do something that relaxes you, like listening to music, or watching some T.V. But also to make sure to get moving as well. After sitting and studying for a long time your body can do with some movement to keep the blood flowing and moving to the squishy grey matter in our heads. I personally enjoy going for a jog during my breaks so I can get my blood flowing as well as clearing out some stress before I get back to studying. On that note, it’s important to drink enough water and eat proper ‘brain fuel’ while studying, which you can find examples of here.

3. Sleep

This is one of the most important tips to follow to reduce test anxiety. Enough sleep will ensure that your brain is functioning the best it can and that your focus won’t waver on the test. Your brain will also be able to pull out information easier when you are well rested. Do whatever you can to make sure that you are having good sleep not only the night before, but having good sleep consistently for a week or so before the exam. Drink calming teas and do relaxation exercises if you have insomnia like me. I personally found that I was able to study better and do better on the exam when I am well rested, and given that you should be budgeting your time properly, you shouldn’t need to pull an all-nighter anyways 😉

4. Motivation

Most important of all, you need to be motivated to study and approaching it with dedication and a positive attitude. This also happens to be a quality that I lack when it comes to studying….but just think, your future depends on your marks! Well, maybe….


Anyways, happy studying everyone! I hope we all get great marks and no test anxiety =)

On another note, this Friday is a very special day for me. And nope, it’s not because it’s the day of part two of the ELA 35 IB exam, but it’s actually the day that I turn 17! Yay~ So to celebrate that amazing day, I might have something amazing in store for you guys. So keep your eyes peeled!

Until then, Jellyfish out~

Jellyfish returns?

Published March 20, 2013 by proxycore

Hello fellow mer-people and landwalkers~

So it seems like it’s been quite a while since I’ve last blogged. Things just got busy and I started to lose motivation….after all, I can never really decide what I want to blog about. No matter, I’ll try to get regular posts up.

Grade 12 already? In fact, graduation is coming up right around the corner. I’m both terrified and excited for it. It really does feel like yesterday when I first entered highschool. If one thing’s true about it, it’s that you learn a lot of things the hard way and you grow up fast. I have no idea where I want to head from now on though, honestly, and I’m sure lots of other people are in the same boat as me. After all, it can be quite a daunting task to chose what you want to study and do for the rest of your life. But I sorta feel like it’s going to be something in the science field anyways, whether it be in research or be in practicing medicine. Here’s a tip that I’ve heard from a lot of my university friends though: do what you are interested in.

I know what some of you guys are thinking. ‘Well, isn’t that obvious?’ or ‘Shouldn’t the main focus be on choosing something that can guarantee you a good job?’. Well the truth is, we can’t know what to really expect. Engineering and being a doctor are both professions that will give you a comfortable salary to live on but they take a lot of dedication in studying. And if you aren’t happy with what you do, you’re not living your life to your fullest potential. On the other hand, arts and literature may be something you enjoy, but it may be harder to find a job with. This is where you need to find the balance between what makes you happy, and what can sustain you.

If I didn’t need to worry about making money, I’d want to be a professional pianist (though with my skills?…..quite unlikely). So for now, I’m thinking of going into general sciences and continuing piano on the side. Sounds fair right? Oh, and field hockey, I’ll be continuing that through university for sure.

So to all the graduating students who still aren’t sure what they want to go into? Pick whatever you enjoy doing the most first. A job that makes a ton of money may be good, but if you hate doing it then it’s not worth it. From then on you can figure out what kind of career balances the right amount of enjoyment with a good pay (plus good vacation times, we all need that). And university is the time for people to try new things and to figure out what they want to do (or so I’ve heard) so don’t stress out more than you need to. And for those who already know what they’re are doing, I wish you the best of luck and the most success possible. Let’s let 2013-2014 be a good school year!

Jellyfish out~

IB, the May edition

Published May 6, 2012 by proxycore

Hello members of JK and passerbys. I’ve realized that it’s been a while since I last updated, so here I am! I guess what I have for you guys today is more of an opinion piece.

30827399So life for me has been pretty hectic lately. I know most of the readers out there are in IB and they all know what I am talking about; the IB exams. May used to be my favorite month, when the weather was nice but not too hot, when things were just starting to grow again and when you get your first hint at the upcoming summer holidays. But that’s not how it is when you are in IB. Instead, you are stuck at home (procrastinating) to study for your crazy 3 paper long HL finals, all the while still having homework from the rest of your subjects. And while you are in your IB life, stuck at home studying while the weather outside is looking dishearteningly amazing, the rest of the world is preparing for summer. Lots of local events are popping up, your non-IB friends are asking you if you want to hang out and watch ‘The Avengers’, all the while you are forced to decline them all.

But all of that studying pays off right? Well, not if you’re like me and lack the ability to retain any information in my (possibly nonexistent) brain. After writing the first paper on the first day, my mind felt violated. The worst part is knowing there’s more the next day….. Well, nonetheless, I managed to survive my first IB exam (only to have more coming before the end of May). But this was probably all avoidable….if my ‘studying’ didn’t look like this:

But we’ll make it, right? Even though the entire time I was writing paper two I felt like I was getting trolled……


IB really is my abusive boyfriend. He takes up my time, doesn’t let me hang out with friends, and tells me over and over that I’m intellectually incapable…..

Well, until next time!

Jellyfish out dying~

Medium vs Message

Published February 15, 2012 by proxycore

Greetings minions. Your overlord has decided to create a new section on this blog. This section will more or less act as a thought journal, also known as a fancy way to call “Jellyfish’s Rants”. Some days it may not even be rants though, just a place to store my thoughts. This post will probably be longer and more serious than the usual ones. For those who don’t want to read the entire post, the first two paragraphs after this one does a good job summarizing it all (Your overlord recommends you read all though). Now onto the content.

A few days back, I was having a conversation with my friend, and like nearly all good conversations that I have it ended up being about epistemology. My friend brought up the fact that he didn’t understand why during a documentary watched in Social Studies in the previous year, that everyone had left crying. The documentary was about child soldiers in Africa, called “Invisible Children” (For those who have not seen it, the link to the first part of the documentary is here). The documentary is truly moving and I would recommend you to watch it before continuing to read this post as it may give you better insight. At least I found it moving, as well the majority of my classmates. I did end up crying quite a bit by the end. And this was exactly what puzzled my friend. He found it hard to understand why some people would cry after watching something like this. And just when remarked that “It’s not like we don’t know about this already, why is everyone being so unnecessarily dramatic and emotional?” I was pretty sure I was about to hit him.

But he then brought to the table an interesting point. Would people have cried the way they had if the message was presented in a different way? What if, you got all the facts that you did in the documentary inside a pamphlet instead. Would you still be moved to tears? As we further discussed this, I tried to justify the importance of medium in this world, which brought me to what I perceive to be a great concern in the world. The world right now is so focused on the way things are presented; sometimes the message behind it can be obscured. The way information is presented is manipulated so it can target our emotions and connect with us. In documentaries like “Invisible Children”, they gave us an up close look at how life is with the children. Seeing this, people may think and remember how their lives are so much luckier and sympathize. But suddenly, if instead of a walk-through of a Child Soldier’s life, you receive a pamphlet with statistics on it, the visceral impact is severely lessened despite the message being just as clear and important; just because one may make less of an emotional impact doesn’t make the situation any less real or any less important.

In society today, touching media is used (in the domain of charity work at least) to give incentive for people to get involved and to spread awareness. But in reality, what tends to happen is that problems surface and people do help, but only to give themselves self-satisfaction. An example would be the earthquake in Haiti. We can all remember when the earthquake first happened; it was all over the news and attention was brought to it in all forms. As a result, help was coming in from everywhere. However, after a few months, the hype started to die down. And within a year it was almost completely wiped out from news. People who were extremely concerned at first were starting to forget about the whole situation, yet Haiti was not yet fully on its way to recovery. Information and news about Haiti was presented all at once, and when the information was no longer presented, people forgot about it. Again, this example illustrates the idea that just because it isn’t mentioned doesn’t mean that the problem doesn’t exist.

Our generation is controlled by the media; it permeates every aspect of our lives and our hearts and minds so easily swayed by it. Every day we are bombarded with different images; all of which come together and allow us to form an idea of who we are and who we should be. And when it comes to charities, with the amount of causes out there, there is a surprising amount of competition. While this is undoubtedly a positive thing, an unfortunate side effect is that only larger charities are brought forth. Many people are aware of the bigger organizations like World Vision and Red cross (which do amazing work by the way, Jellyfish overlord recommends you get involved), but they may not be aware of smaller organizations which support an equally as important cause. Now I am not at all saying that all charities must stop using emotional mediums to get attention to their cause, neither am I saying that we must ignore all the large charities and search for smaller ones. An emotional medium is the most effective way to get movement from the masses. In our busy (and perhaps IB) lives, sometimes a strong impact is needed to drive our attention to someone else. But sometimes, you should wonder why the cause alone is not enough incentive to get people involved, and that an emotional medium is needed in the first place. And even then, sometimes it is because we are so exposed to these same issues that we become apathetic. We don’t feel the need to help poverty or women’s rights in Africa because there is so much media out there about it that we become indifferent towards these atrocities.

If you think back to why you helped a cause, it is oftentimes because you saw an advertisement or some form of informative medium and it moved you (or because you were forced to by your school to do charity work, but that’s beside the point). Usually, after you do something about it to help out, you just forget about it (or complete your CAS/volunteering hours….).When was the last time you’ve supported a cause for the sake of supporting a cause? When was the last time you truly believed in it rather than just doing the charity work for doing charity work? When people aren’t inflicted by something directly, it sometimes takes much more for them to get involved. In Chinese, there is a saying that reads “针不刺到肉,你不知痛”. Roughly translated, it says “If the needle does not stab your flesh, you do not feel the pain.” It means you don’t truly understand the severity of a situation unless it directly involves you. But more people should be getting involved for a cause, not just the ones affected by it. And if you are not affected by it, while you are helping, you should focus your intentions to truly help the cause, and try not to only be doing it for self-satisfaction. So although medium is a very sharp tool in terms of getting awareness and giving incentive for people to help, don’t let the medium be the only thing to affect your decisions. When you want to help out a cause, help out for the sake of the cause, not just because the medium influenced you to.

Now as the hypocrite that your overlord is, I will be bringing to the spotlight certain charities from time to time and I hope you guys will all be inspired to get involved. So show some love when time comes. Until then!

Jellyfish out~

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